Archive for September, 2007

I think my favorite thing about Autumn is the lack of bugs and the cooler temperatures. I also love the color of the leaves, but hate to see them fall!! 🙂 I love Halloween too, it is such a fun holiday.


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Watchout Ravelry here I come!!! (after my coffee!!) I think it may require more than one cup tho…..see ya later!

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Where did I go wrong?

Well this morning sucks…..its a hard day for me. But tears and all I will get through.

I asked my daughter what she was going to do if she was at her dads house and had to get herself up for school in the morning when he was not home and she said “set an alarm”. I further explained that is she missed the bus, there would be no one there to take her to school and she said she would call the neighbors!!! There is a part of me that wants to say just go (so they can see it really isn’t so bad at mom’s), but I can’t. Kind of a “you made your bed, now lie in it”!! I know is not because I am a bad mom or anything like that. He has a nicer house, he has more money (twice as much). I can’t compete with that! I am doing the best that I can with what I have. They are not going with out anything, and I am always there for them 24/7 365 ! And if I should happen to not be here, Brian is.

The entire thing yesterday was about his schedule change and the kids saying they want to be there. They have never told me that out right, the ex has, and I have to ask the kids what is going on, then they say “ya we want to live with dad”.It was about my son and what he wants, the daughter was not mentioned once by the ex’s attorney. She is a budding 11 year old, who is going to be there when mother nature calls? she claims dads girlfriend who is only there on weekends. I don’t remember good old Mom-o-nature calling only on the weekends, did I miss something? I can’t change their mind and am very afraid I am going to lose the kids. This is killing me. This is very hard it is making me sick. I know I did the right thing my leaving him, but what did I do to deserve this? Should I have stayed there and been miserable so my kids would have a nice home and be with their friends?

The judge says we have to go to mediation and try to come to an agreement as we have been agreeable in the past. If we can’t then we go through a full blown long drawn out custody battle in December and that the kids are old enough to consider their expressions. I don’t want to go to mediation and have to talk to him, we can’t talk civially and I am sick and tired of argueing with him…..thats why I left. I don’t think its going to work well for me because I can’t stand him.

When I aske the kids the reasons they are these….the environment is better, (there are leafy prettier trees and grass, not Jack Pines and sand) there is a four wheeler, dads wood stove is easier to open, that is our childhood home (they are 14 and 11) and that is where they should be, that is where they started school and that is where they should finish, they are in 6th and 9th grade and have not gone to school there for three years, neither will be in the same school. My son likes the BoyScout troop there better, my daughter misses her friends she had at school there (how does she know they are all still there, she plays with one when she is at her dads, I don’t let my son do the mechanical repairs on my vehicle I take them to the mechanic, etc…you get the picture….not because they are going hungry orI beat them, all material things. Oh ya, my son said he can walk in the woods and see wildlife at his dads and he can’t do that here, but he did shoot a 5 point buck while he was hunting here (oh but he had to sit and wait for that) and we see deer nightly in the field. In fact, we scared too off yesterday morning while going out to the bus.

Everyone keeps telling me I won’t lose the kids, but I really think they are wrong. I don’t know what to do…….


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You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you’re apt to keep very unusual habits.

Whether you’re a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence – you like to experiment with your lifestyle.

Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.

You enjoy staying home, but that doesn’t mean you’re a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

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Topic of the week:When I knit dishcloths I use my bamboo needles and any cotton yarn that I have that will work. I usually have either sugar and creme or peaches and creme on hand so that is ususally what I use. I do have some other heavy cottons for weaving tha I use as well.

Now for life…..My sons bird died, it was a sun conure and he was very upset. I had just read in the paper that there were two cockatiels for sale so I thought I would call….in the mean time I posted on the local freecycle pages as well one other local yahoo group that I was looking to give a bird a good home. Well I got a response for two male cockatiels, with the cage and accessories for sale, Make offer. After playing 20 questions I told the gal the current financial situation, broke as usual, the son had $25 to spend on the birds would she accept it. I don’t know if I offended her or what but she said if he wanted them he could just have them. So done deal, pick up on Tuesday (today). In the mean time the other gal calls and says $40 for the two females (see where this is going). So Made a deal with her and picked those two up yesterday….hopefully we will have baby birdies!!! So we have gone from on bird to 4 trying to raise a family!!!

My llamas are at the alpaca farm being bred….and after two month they finally gave in and went down for the male. Now to keep trying until they spit at the male, that indicates “Hey I am pregnant, you did you job now GO!!” Then in about a year they will deliver, ugh….and we think 9 months is bad!!!

Custody battle still on for Thursday afternoon. I am really not to worried about it, but the thought of the possibility of losing your kids, ages 14 and 11, when you have been there for them since birth, is a hard one to get out of your mind.

Off to spend the day with a friend!!!!

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These quizes are generally pretty accurate but I am not sure about these two!!


What Kena Means

K is for KindE is for Enchanting

N is for Natural

A is for Articulate

You’re Animal Farm!
by George Orwell

You are living proof that power corrupts and whoever leads you will
become just as bad as the past leaders. You’re quite conflicted about this emotionally
and waver from hopelessly idealistic to tragically jaded. Ultimately, you know you can’t
trust pigs. Your best moments are when you’re down on all fours.

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

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Wicked Weather

What is up with our weather? In the upper 80’s one day and then suddenly it is barely hitting 50, windy, rainy and just plain miserable. Had to fire up the woodstove a couple of days ago, nothing like wood heat!! I am not ready for the weather we are having, but I know it comes every year and I am never ready for it. Last year it was a brown Christmas and even into January we had no snow. We got blasted with it though in the end of February and March. Marquette got 48 inches in one snowfall, we didn’t get that much. I think we are not going to be so lucky this year. I think we are going to have a “bad” winter, with lots of snow. That is ok, I don’t mind shoveling. Actually I would rather shovel snow than have it be 90+ out. You can only take off so many cloths and then your still hot and yucky!

My son has a football game tonight in Ishpeming. Hopefully they are not playing in the rain this game. Good Luck Josh and the Patriots….have a great game!!

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